Friday, September 10, 2010

On a lighter note

We (Patrick & I) want to thank everyone for the outpouring of love and support. When I started this blog I never thought it would be this kind of a tool, but it has connected me to some amazing people and helped me grow as a wife and a Christian woman. So again, Thank you to everyone we feel truly blessed to have all of your support and prayers.
On a lighter note I have been finding humor these days all through my life. My husband and dogs might be the funniest people/pets I have every met and I am so grateful to have them in my life. I am spending today in reflection and being thankful for all the blessings I have been given. We have a wonderful and loving God!
I thought I'd share a small conversation my husband and I had the other day that I have been laughing about ever since... Pat and I spent the weekend two weekends ago pretty bummed out. We really didn't leave the house (except for and ice cream run) and we didn't really do anything. We weren't really speaking just a whole lot of quiet. On Sunday night we realized that we had to get my car to the dealer. We made an appt. 2 whole weeks before and I was really tired of driving my husbands huge truck all around so we had to go. Well I had spent all day Sunday in my bathrobe, I was comfortable and not really caring about looking good. So when Pat told me I had follow him in the truck to take my car in I was bummed, I didn't want to change. So I asked Pat "Do I have to get out if I drive the truck?"
"No you just have to scoot over so I can drive home"Check Spelling
"Can I wear my bathrobe then?"
Then Patrick looked me right in the eyes and said the most peculiar thing my husband has ever said to me with the most sincere tone "Yeah... I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life."
Who ever is reading this might not think it's funny, but if you know Pat or I you probably might. I have been laughing about it ever since and every time Pat asks me a question of course I respond with "I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life!"
Along with our dog Henry tooting loudly and frequently, Jersey Shore, and Mennonite in a little black dress the book I am reading, a lot of my time lately has been spent laughing and for that I am really thankful!

Cassie R.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


Once again I find myself apologizing for my absence from blogging, although this time it want due to laziness or lack of information to report it was simply because i was struggling to find the words to update everyone, here goes...
On August 22 I woke up and took a pregnancy test, it was positive. I have never been happier in my entire life, I jumped on Patrick and we both laid in bed and cried we were so excited. Our dream had finally come true. Monday morning I called the doctor and we went in for blood work, it came back positive that we were in fact pregnant, however because we are fertility patients the standard is that you repeat blood work to make sure it is not left over HCG hormone from the injection. We repeated the blood work on Wednesday and found that my HCG level had risen, but my progesterone was low. I immediately was placed on oral progesterone and ordered to repeat the blood work on Friday. Friday afternoon we found out that my HCG level was falling, and the next Monday at 6 1/2 weeks I miscarried.
I cant even begin to to tell you how devastated we are. Our journey has been long and hard. We have been trying to get pregnant now for 1 year and 9 months. We are struggling, we have found strength in each other and in the lord, but we are still struggling for the strength to go on and continue this process.
I'm sorry if this post hurt any one of my close friends who I did not tell, I am sorry you had to find out this way, but I hope you realize its because I couldn't find the strength to tell you without breaking down. Patrick and I made the decision to only share with our family while this was going on. Our families were a great source of strength and inspiration and for that I am truly grateful for them.
We are going to continue to try for children. I was told that my chances of conceiving this month are high, and we will be doing another cycle of injections if this does not work. This is getting harder every month.

Cassie R.