Once again I find myself apologizing for my absence from blogging, although this time it want due to laziness or lack of information to report it was simply because i was struggling to find the words to update everyone, here goes...
On August 22 I woke up and took a pregnancy test, it was positive. I have never been happier in my entire life, I jumped on Patrick and we both laid in bed and cried we were so excited. Our dream had finally come true. Monday morning I called the doctor and we went in for blood work, it came back positive that we were in fact pregnant, however because we are fertility patients the standard is that you repeat blood work to make sure it is not left over HCG hormone from the injection. We repeated the blood work on Wednesday and found that my HCG level had risen, but my progesterone was low. I immediately was placed on oral progesterone and ordered to repeat the blood work on Friday. Friday afternoon we found out that my HCG level was falling, and the next Monday at 6 1/2 weeks I miscarried.
I cant even begin to to tell you how devastated we are. Our journey has been long and hard. We have been trying to get pregnant now for 1 year and 9 months. We are struggling, we have found strength in each other and in the lord, but we are still struggling for the strength to go on and continue this process.
I'm sorry if this post hurt any one of my close friends who I did not tell, I am sorry you had to find out this way, but I hope you realize its because I couldn't find the strength to tell you without breaking down. Patrick and I made the decision to only share with our family while this was going on. Our families were a great source of strength and inspiration and for that I am truly grateful for them.
We are going to continue to try for children. I was told that my chances of conceiving this month are high, and we will be doing another cycle of injections if this does not work. This is getting harder every month.